By the title of this post you can already tell tha I did something soooooooo stupid making me want to end it all right there (not really but felt like it)
I had been trying to trade my Made In Heaven as I didn't fit in/like the play style of the stand. I perfer a stand that has normal/high damaging attacks or a lot of attack you can rely on as others are on cooldown such as KC, GE, SP, or TW (I haven't used any other stands tho). So I tried trading my MiH for SP:TW but failed to (only tried twice TwT).
I then went to my friend's vip server in which I met one of his friends. I told her that I given up trying to trade the MiH and was just going t roka it and grind for the stand that I wanted. I asked her if she wanted the stand so that it wouldn't be a waste. She said that her friend would like to have a MiH as she already had one.
Oh boy this is where/when it all happened.
I can see the memory as clearly as if it happened yesterday (because it was yesterday). As I waited for her friend to get on the server I collected items around the map. One Rokakaka and One Arrow. As I was talking to her the very action that would be the very thing that stole the hope of obtaining heaven.
Was me accidently eating the roka.
And there is was, gone. I felt my heart sink so deep. I couldn't even breath. I could feel the disappointment and confusion from my friend that I just met.
There was notning I could do now that the stand was gone.
I apologized for my stupidity and she said that it was ok but I could sence that she was still upset. I then tried farming for a stand only ending with Anubis. It was getting lose to th time Dio would spawn so I left the server to switch stands with my alt as it didn't have access to the vip server, only to come back to the server being empty and no one in it. I don't think she left as a way to get away, but it was pretty close to DIO which was sad.
This story is a little dramatized but it is what actually happened.
I'll probably edit this as I find more grammar/spelling mistakes.